First week at a brand new job and all the change has really made me think about life and the future and where I want to be. It has been so long since I’ve written on here and after following several blogs religiously lately, I decided it was my turn to start writing again. I know there are going to be several pieces of my blogs that don’t make a ton of sense since I haven’t written in so long, but I feel like it would take forever to update everyone on all that’s happened in the last two years. That and I don’t know that anyone even reads this anymore, so it’s more for me.
This week has been a bit of a tough transition. After many hours of contemplation and talks with my coworkers and husband, I decided it was time to leave the American Cancer Society. I had been then for a year and a half, and made bonds with coworkers and volunteers that will definitely continue on my journey with me. Leaving the comfort and support of the work environment I was in was really difficult. I made some of my closest friends while working at ACS, who I think will continue to be some of my closest. But I don’t do that well with change, even though I am always a fan of redecorating or rearranging furniture. I find comfort in close relationships and in knowing what I’m doing and how to be successful. I could have never guessed the things I would learn about myself and about others when I started that position. It’s pretty amazing how life really seems to work out how it’s supposed to. Even though we go through many trials and tribulations, when you get to a point where you can look back and reflect, it seems to all make sense.
The last two years have been a real reflection and soul searching point for me. After searching a few years ago for my birth parents and slowly finding and connecting with them, it has given me a more complete feeling. Fostering and building those relationships, while it hasn’t always been easy, has been rewarding and insightful. I’ve learned I’m not as great at communicating as I thought (I should be better about answering text messages and checking emails). I learned that even as my family grows (not baby wise, even though my parents and brother would love that), that family will always have your back and it holds a special connection. And lastly, I am continually reminded of how lucky I am to have such an amazing husband by my side through the ups and downs of life. We are a good balance to each other. I support and worry about him while he leaves on a fire or the possibility of a dangerous call, and he supports me and loves me even when I am a stress ball of a mess (and I definitely am a lot of the time!)
Leaving ACS was bittersweet. I left some of the greatest friends. There aren’t many jobs where you’re lucky enough to miss your coworkers and look forward to going to work on Monday just to see them and talk to them. Doing the job of a CRM puts you in a special category and almost creates a special bond. As I move on to a new step in my career, I am going to dearly miss the women I have spent the last year and a half laughing, talking, and crying with!